Starting over

Yes, I have deleted all my previous posts. I did so because they were disjointed with my irregular blogging and really wouldn't make much sense with what I am planning on doing now with my blog. I have decided that I am in a new season of my life that I am still figuring out. I want to document my walk in this stage, more regularly than I attempted to previously - therefor, the wiped blog and clean slate to begin.

I have been back in the States for a little over 2 months after spending 1 year in Australia as a live-in assistant in a group home for people with disabilities connected to an international organisation called L'Arche. I have moved out of my parents house to live in a rental house with 2 old co-workers who used to be live-ins with me at L'Arche Heartland. This year I originally thought was going to be me processing what I have lived the past 3 years as a live-in assistant with L'Arche as well as sussing out my next steps. I also have recently got re-certified as a CNA in Kansas and become one in Missouri as well.

Since rent typically is a result of moving out of your parents house, I have been looking for jobs in addition to processing and sussing. :) There are a few other things that have been in my mind that honestly, I felt should be stressing me out. It bothered me that it wasn't 'cause I almost felt apathetic and that is never a good thing. I talked a very good friend of mine and mentioned my feelings and everything going on to her. She pointed out to me that I'm sussing and processing. I'm in a completely different space in my life and I'm still adjusting to things.

With that in mind in addition to wondering about a few dreams I haven't heard God speak to me about in a while, I took some time to myself and brought out a devotional. Going through it, the theme for the past couple days was "I have been bought by the blood of Christ. I belong to God." It walked through the steep price that Jesus paid and how it was not cheap so we shouldn't see ourselves as cheap. We need to "conduct ourselves throughout the time of your stay in fear" - as in having a deep sense of responsibility that comes due to the price that Jesus paid to redeem us.

As we have been bought and redeemed - this means that our bodies (spirit, body, and soul) belong to God and He can dwell in them by His Holy Spirit. He wants us to offer our bodies as a living sacrifice, which means it no longer belongs to us. It belongs to God. As we belong to God, He has sanctified us. He has set us apart to where God is the only One with access - Satan has no reach. God has placed us in an area where we are made available to Him! Anything that is not of God has no right to approach you - its kept away by the blood. We have been removed from Satan's authority and translated into God's kingdom. We are in God's territory and we are under His laws!!!

Needless to say, this is why I have begun a clean slate. I have allowed Satan to deceive me and at times follow under his laws when God has bought me and I am His child. NO MORE! :-D God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of POWER, LOVE, and a SOUND MIND. I no longer live in timidity - I am NOT cheap, which means I am invaluable. I'll close this really long post with this verse I received via e-mail.

Sovereign LORD, you are God! Your covenant is trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant. – 2 Samuel 7:28 (NIV)

Toward the end of his life, David makes a powerful statement: the things that God had promised David at the beginning of his life were fulfilled toward the end of it. David’s words are a source of comfort for all of us who are walking through life and wondering where we will end up, or how we will finish our course on this earth. God is the Alpha and the Omega, He was there at the beginning and He is faithful to the end.