Emotions into words

For the past couple weeks, I thought I had been doing better until I began talking about my friend's death and tears occurred.  A couple days later, in class we talked briefly on what to do in student death and tears just kept coming.  I set up appointments to talk with people, but it wasn't until I talked with my pastor that he was able to put words to what I have been feeling.

I have a tender heart and love people.
Since I have been in school and unable to work much - I have not been able to share my love for people through service (as that is primarily how I show others love).

My heart has been full for sometime and it has been frustrating for me with my constraints that I am unable to share my heart in service.  This will change soon, but just knowing why I have been so emotional has helped very much.

This time in my life, I am in preparation.  My full heart is anticipating when it can be released like a runner prepping for a race. :-D I can feel my spirit welling up within me as I type this! lol  There will be a time when my race will start (not that it hasn't already, but a stage of my race rather) and when that signal goes off - I will be able to expel my heart and share the love of Christ that is in my heart for people!

I do think I will end up doing the Peace Corps.  While I haven't received something I would call a definite yes...while talking with my pastor, I felt no hesitancy when he stated my doing the Peace Corps.  My heart is still open to whatever He has for me if it ends up not being the direction He wants me to go, but in the meantime...I will more than likely be out of the States for 27 months!