Reconciling and conclusions

I got an opportunity to talk with a friend of mine that has heard me verbal process through God's direction to the Peace Corps.  She was actually the one that helped me when I was confused after my interview and being given options to choose between nomination places.

See, in my interview, I had said that the job I did was the most important, then place, and timing.  When I was given the choice between being nominated for Nepal or Fiji...Fiji was the one that I liked the job more over Nepal, but I wanted to choose Nepal because it was a place I had been wanting to go for 8 years (as well as Russia, though I hadn't really talked about wanting to go to Nepal).  Long story short, I felt at one time I was going to Nepal, but it was not God's timing.  Russia is the country I have a heart for.

My friend walked me through a few questions that I don't really remember or the conclusion except that ultimately, I wanted to go to serve people and that I'd be happy wherever I was placed because I would be serving others.  Just because I had a preference of place over the job at the time did not mean that I still would prefer place over the job.  I don't know if that even made sense, but in essence - my friend helped me reconcile my confusion.

This time, she helped me to see that my past annoyances with people talking about how I was "marching to my own drumbeat" and "been wanting to do this for a long time".  God has a calling on my life that is taking me to do things that do not seem normal for others.  It is not necessarily because others do not see the hand of God directing my paths, but that it is not something they may be able to understand because God may not have called them to go.  Again, I don't know if this makes sense, but once again I am more reconciled to it.  However, I still DO plan on posting a status on Facebook to inform people that I am following God's will for my life and not my own.

I have gone through many seasons in my life.  YWAM, I knew I was supposed to go.  Afterwards? I knew God had told me to stay in KS despite my desire to go so I did.  Time went on and I began to truly appreciate where I was in my life and thankful I was in KS.  Not much later, I felt God release me to go.  It BLEW my mind that it was finally time, but I went to Australia.  I came back and took a year to myself.  I was led to go back to school and finally complete my degree.  Now? I'm being told to go again.

These past few years being back, God has been preparing me for such a time as this.  This next stage of my life? All my love and overflowing preparation will be released and I can finally completely focus on my purpose in life - to love others!