Monday, January 2, 2012

Mothers

Why do I call my mom to share news when I am excited about something? I know her reaction will be like a wet blanket, but yet I still continue to call her.  I hope I learn not to soon 'cause afterwards I feel so frustrated and mad.  The phrase "biding my time" came to me while I was telling her my decision so I said it.  She said that she did not feel like working as a PCT and taking classes towards becoming an EMT was biding my time towards nursing school and "having my life on hold".


While yes, I may have used those phrases - she got hung up on them and missed my point.  I did not even explain things well earlier.  Nursing school is one vision/goal that I have in front of me at the moment that I cannot do until I am accepted.  My thoughts initially were to take courses to become an EMT until I was accepted because it would be working towards the medical field without having to retake classes.  However, as my mom has thrown this at me - I realise that is not something that would be ideal for me because I could become sick of school again and when I DO get accepted into nursing school, not do well and lose passion for it because of continually being in school.


 Whenever I do get accepted into nursing school, I am looking at 2 - 4 years working at a hospital depending on whether or not I choose to have my loans paid off by working for the hospital I attend.  I can keep working there 'cause I really do enjoy it but I know its not something I want to do for the rest of my life - L'Arche is.


I do not think I am making much sense anymore, I will post when I can explain what is going through my head better!